Tuesday, January 5, 2016


"I Yam what I Yam" - Popeye the Sailor

This common term of "i am what i am" can be both constructive and destructive as well in their own way. One thing i've learnt from the past is not to follow anybody's footstep completely, be brave, take the road less taken. I've followed the majority of the society for the past few years, and it has brought me little or few happiness.

I've never wanted to be an engineer, nor to be in the education line as what my parents decided for me. In fact i wanted to either be in the law field or a movie director or a comic artist (tho i have no true talent in arts) even? Am just glad that i have finally found the line that i'm happy to be in and will most certainly give in my best effort to be successful in.

The inspiring life story of Alibaba founder Jack Ma Infographic

Note to self, learn all the good in mankind and shunt away the bad. Be yourself and choose your own path.

Monday, January 4, 2016


"No man is an island, entire of itself." - John Donne

The mere thought of living life alone without friends and companionship scares me, yes it does. There are times when i absolutely hated everybody around me and just wish everybody could just disappear and leave me alone. Thank god those thoughts don't last longer that it should.

I've attended 2 universities from 2 different part of Malaysia. KL and Penang, the difference in companionship can be so different and yet similar in so many ways. Some friends may be fun to be with but is of very little value towards the progress of my studies, and some the other way round. I do believe that no individual is the same. I do cherish everybody around me, friends as well as family although sometimes i hated them with all my guts.

Growing up in a relatively 'kampung' environment, i've had a few close friends. rou qian, chang jen, hui ming and cili padi? Yes, those are my childhood friends. I guess they still live around me. We would spend the entire evening running around, playing hopscotch, sharing ghost stories about things coming out from the wall and catching worms. Life was that simple back then without any technological distraction. Chinese New Year used to be the happiest time of the year for us. Our parents don't really supply us with deadly amount of firecrackers and bombs of mass destructions during CNY, but still we manage to make good use of what we had that time.

OH YA, besides CNY, ang paos and firecrackers, another occasion very much looked forward by us is none other than the mooncake festival. Yes that will be the time of the year where we bring out our best assets.

Sunday, January 3, 2016


"Three things in human life are important, the first is to be kind; the second is to be kind; and the third is to be kind" 
- Henry James

It has always been in my nature to be compassionate to all beings, though not every time, well maybe only half the time.

Growing up as a child, people often see me as the kind "giant", yes giant, because i am fat. Teachers and adults don't really have issues with me. I can sit quietly on a spot for hours just reading that piece of Peter and Jane. And thus, i got the male role model award upon graduating from Shang Wu primary school. Nothing to be proud of really, since i am not that big of a role model now.

I do admit i have a heart for animals, taking care of the young as well as the old. I dont mind spending most of my time in a community center, provided i dont bore the hell outta the residents there with my lack of verbal capabilities.

 People often say, kindness starts from the people closest to us, and i hate to admit this, but at times i do put more importance on outsiders more than people close to me. I'm sorry if you are that person close to me, ill put in more effort next time alright. <3

p/s had the most amazing lam mee today

Saturday, January 2, 2016


"And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it" - Ronald Dahl

Day 2 of the year 2016, everything's still on track except a few bumps here and there yesterday with someone important. Funny how anger can change one's personality completely.

Searched up on some of the few ways i find useful to distract myself from quickly falling into the pit of fire.

  1. Separate Emotion from Action 
  2. Identify Why
  3. Cool Off with Exercise
  4. Delay Your Reaction
  5. Distract Yourself
  6. Do Your Homework (understand why)
  7. Find a Safe Haven
  8. Look Before You Leap
  9. Discuss Your Anger with Someone Trustworthy
  10. Listen to Music
  11. Disconnect from Your Triggers
  12. Redecorate
  13. Watch a Funny Movie/Show
  14. Do Something Relaxing
  15. Use Anger to Fuel Change
On a brighter note, everything went well today and manage to catch up on the much needed
rest post-new year celebration.

Thursday, December 31, 2015


"We carry within us the wonders we seek around us" - Sir Thomas Browne

First of all, welcome back to your own site Ivan, the same site you promised you'll visit and update more than a year back.

Well since it's a brand new year, let's just try make it a habit to write something to yourself as often as possible alright?

Year 2016 is the year of the Monkey. According to Chinese horoscope, February 4,2016 is the year of the monkey, Fire Monkey to be exact. Roughly 24 years passed by, everything felt like a daze, having made several bad decision in life such as being in the wrong course, being in wrong relationships, having the wrong hobby etc, can definitely be rough. However, it's the experience and lessons learnt along the way that counts. 2 Cycles of my life has passed by (One cycle being 12 years). This is definitely the year to strive.

I am not much of a person who believes in luck, feng shui and all those hocus pocus. I am a pure believer of hard work and a positive attitude. I rarely wish people good luck, instead ill wish them all the best. Perhaps that's what being taught by my mother since young.

Resolution for the year 2016

  • Get a property - Rent out if possible
  • Achieve greater heights in my work as a financial advisor - Hitting promotion 75k and recruitments 4 managers.
  • Be in a better shape than i was in the year 2015 - Habits
  • Have better work-family relationship management.
  • Attitude adjustment under pressure - Especially when on the road.
  • Treat people around me better and with more understanding. - Smile more frown less
  • Catch up with long time buddies
  • Travel somewhere 3 places in Malaysia 1 place outside of Malaysia
  • Be wiser in expenditures - Take notes and plan a short term, medium term and long term financial goals.
  • Be more focused, one thing at a time, do it right.
  • Be involved in charity - Giving back to the society as much as i can. (Revisit kepala batas old folk's home + visit at least 2 other charity homes for the needy)
  • Sleep well eat well, play hard work hard.